all of this research about what people can do post high school has got me thinking about what the hell im going to do. lauren and i still talk about being toll booth operators but i think i want more than that. no. i know i do. but what am i good at? im good at, i dont even know what im good at. well im kinda good at cutting through peoples bullshit and i dont rush people and i understand people who are going through hard times because of mine. but i dont think id be a very good counselor or anything like that, at least i dont think. and dont you need a phd for that? i dont want to do that. ill become a kindergarten teacher. scare the shit outta the kids and make them behave. heh.
i dont even know if my grades are good enough to get into college at all.
i dont know what ill do. but i know what i dont want to do. i just dont know if i can avoid it.